Thankful

ah stupid me. why am i still thinking about it. i know i should stop right now and i know that thinking about it will even hurt me more. why, why, why. i'm not good enough i guess. ah wait... they met each other way before me. almost 2 years before me. (wait..was it even 2 years?.. i see more pictures of them together.... it must be more than that) why did i even think that it was possible? i'm such an idiot (who can't even spell "idiot" right ) why was i so curious and a stalker? i shouldn't have done what i did. i'm really sorry. sorry for being so nosy, sorry for not knowing, sorry for being quiet, sorry for being me. it hurts, it still hurts. i thought i got over it but i guess i was wrong. ah...i wish i had never met you... is what i thought.. but.. no i'm glad to have met you. i think. yes, you show me the other world, you show me something i never would have seen if i havent met you. i learned my lesson. thank you for being born. it's fate that we met, and it's fate that we must separate. i wish i never cross path with you again. if you see me, please pretend we never know each other, please pretend the time we spend never existed, please listen to this last request of mine. thank you for everything and good bye forever.

people should just stay in the same place where they were born
it's so much easier that way
ugh,.. path of least resistance.. see?
taking the easiest way out of situation is what people should be doing
then life wouldn't be so hard

--> Death of a Shaman, independence film by Richard Hall

bleh

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